I sat down to rant a bit about a murderer (okay, okay,
alleged murderer) who had been released on bond who
allegedly committed another murder, and the ineffectiveness of the legal system at providing justice for the victims. And they my daughter stopped by and deposited my baby granddaughter, Rebecca. I had agreed to take care of her while my daughter and grandson went to the dentist. Rebecca is five weeks old today, and having her around puts a whole different spin on the world.
See, taking care of Rebecca means the whole focus of your life shifts. The human baby is born the most helpless of creatures. All other mammal babies must be able to do
something within the first few minutes of life -- breathe, stand and walk, cling, swim, locate mom and nurse, follow the herd or the troop or the pod. A human baby can't do anything except eat, cry, sleep, and make a mess. Rebecca is totally and entirely dependent on having someone to take care of her and to meet her needs. If she cries I have to figure out whether she's wet, hungry, gassy, or tired, because she can't tell me which it is. And if it's none of the above, I can't go off on her for being fussy or persnickety or crabby. That would just make her cry more.
Father Thomas Keating says in his presentation on contemplative prayer that the the one thing the human baby needs is love, and that love must be expressed
concretely. In other words, the human infant, having left the safety and security and serenity of the womb for the big, scary world, needs to know that it is still safe and secure. And the way to show Rebecca that she is safe and secure is to love her by holding her and ensuring her physical and emotional needs are met.
So, when Rebecca wakes up from her nap and cries, she needs to know that someone is there. And good old grandpa picks her up and talks softly to her while he changes her diaper and powders her bottom and makes her bottle. And then we sit down comfortably and I feed her. After she's fed I burp her. And then, because she's now at the advanced age of five weeks and doesn't want to go right back to sleep, I hold her while she looks around and checks out all of the sounds and shapes and colors that make up her world. After a while, she'll get tired. She usually falls asleep on my shoulder, and then I put her in her playpen. And when she wakes up the cycle starts all over again.
Rebecca is totally dependent and to take care of her I must focus totally on her. That's the focus shift -- from TV or books or the internet or whatever other distractions clutter up my life, to Rebecca. It's a shift of consciousness, from anything and everything to one thing -- a baby girl.
And guess what? In five weeks something amazing has happened. Rebecca and I have bonded. When she wakes up from her nap and cries I only have to pick her up and talk to her and she becomes quiet. I continue to talk to her while I'm changing her and she doesn't fuss. As long as I'm talking to her she waits patiently until I've gotten her cleaned up and ready to eat. Even though she's hungry she'll wait, as long as she hears my voice, because she knows food is coming.
And Rebecca has trained me to listen for her cry and to respond appropriately.
And while I'm taking care of Rebecca, nothing else seems to matter. Wars and rumors of wars -- we'll always have them. Disasters come and go. Sometimes we seem to be teetering on the edge of an abyss. I can always rant and rave, because there's so much to rant and rave about. But all to rarely do I focus on one thing to the exclusion of all else, particularly when that one thing requires only one thing -- love.
So I'll treasure these moments when I have Rebecca around, because when I have her, for a little while anyway, all seems right with the world.